I'm transferring stuff over here.
In the meantime, a lot of my past posts are gone ):
How?
Sigh.
x tammy penned at 7:34 PM
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Haha I'm like blogging on a monthly basis.
I'll find one day to go through my old posts, delete some unnecessary ones, transfer some really private ones into my locked account and transfer all my defined- posts here (it currently has more than 100 posts!). Then I'll make this blog the public one, just like what I did before i.e. this isn't the first time I've made this blog private. Hopefully it'll be the last. I love the archives x) They're getting so so so looooong and pretty.
This is actually a rather random and happy post.
x tammy penned at 1:10 AM
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Dear Tammy,
You're writing a letter to yourself again even though you’ve got homework to complete. On a normal day, you wouldn’t write a nonsensically random letter to yourself. This means something is up aye? First, let’s have a short reflection session and see how much you’ve changed over the past months.
Positive aspects
Better grades
You have become more hardworking in certain subjects. Your GPA was 2.25 because you failed 3 subjects overall - Physics, Chemistry and Math.
- Physics
You failed the first test in term 1, but passed the second in term 2. Although you still failed Physics overall with a GPA of 1.6, there was an improvement
- Chemistry
You failed titration, but passed your EOI. After some calculations you found you passed Chemistry overall! This is an improvement too.
- Math
You did pretty okay for the retest with 22/35. Not exactly a fantastic mark but a big improvement from the last term. You did pretty well for your performance task too! You still failed overall but hey! Mr Ng has been a very encouraging teacher and his encouragement really helped.
- English
After receiving the comprehension paper, your grade went up!
- Optimism
You have shown a more optimistic side than you did before. Friends even wonder why you are so happy about things that one ought to be sad about.
4 subjects improved! Instead of failing 3 subjects, you failed 2.
Now, after calculating the new marks, your GPA has gone up to about 2.49!
Negative aspects
- Need for firmer grounding
Someone once told you that you were too soft. You’re trying not to get pushed around so much, but it’s really difficult, especially if deadlines have to be met. Admit it; you do have a fear of higher authority.
- Tendency to Procrastinate
Just look at the time you are sleeping each night. Why? You work too slowly, or you somehow just cannot seem to face work during the day. This is going to land you in big trouble one day. You’ve already started falling asleep in classes again. This is very, very bad.
- Short attention span
You get distracted easily. A little music blasting from your computer is enough for you to end up surfing friendster.
- Perfectionism
_ told you to accept things the way they are because sometimes they can’t be changed – especially not overnight. The thing is, you’re just critical over your own work.
As usual, you find more faults.
Moving on to what is troubling you.
Your feelings of her being power hungry are close to being confirmed. She’s already the _ of _. What more could she want? You’re turning down the offer of House Captainship because 1. You want to focus on PSB. 2. You don’t have the passion to continue. She wants to be _ and actually agreed to running for _, which means she wants it. You feel that she should give others that leadership opportunity and you can’t understand why she’s so jealous. She’s already having trouble coping with work herself and she wants to be _???
Not only that. You dislike her attitude change. All of a sudden she’s just “whatever-ing” practically everything. She doesn’t seem to be prioritizing school work and instead everything in her life is just _ and _, _ and _.She keeps saying everything will screw up. Quote her, “SCREW IT ALL”. What kind of a leader is that? What kind of confidence is she showing? She isn’t even blogging appropriately and you think it is unfair because you almost got into trouble with your blog and she didn’t – all because she is _ of _.
You’re thinking that just because she is _ of _ she is“abusing her authority. Now you can’t even wear stickers or openly support _’s campaign. You mind a lot because you want to help her.
You have no idea how to handle this whenever her attitude surfaces, but you know you’re going to consult one of them on this.
Love,
Your conscious mind
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Copied and pasted this from a word doc so it's kinda screwed.
x tammy penned at 2:50 AM
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Random poem cum song?
The highest people around,
Are the lowest to the ground.
That's why when they fall
It's not obvious at all.
You don't see them.
They fall hard and painfully
Because they bear the weight of others, not effortlessly,
But silently,
Never showing signs of agony.
Of course, you don't see them.
(song part)
Is it that easy?
To show that you're happy,
All the time, day and night,
When nothing's right.
It is that easy?
To show that nothing's wrong?
Cos all this while, you've been strong.
I just wanted you to know, all along...
I wanna thank you,
For being there, everywhere,
You never gave up on me,
For just being you, yeah it's true.
That's plain for all to see.
Whatever lah. Random. When someone has too many friends, you don't know if you're the special close one to her.
I hate that feeling
x tammy penned at 11:49 PM
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For Singapore Asians, the study suggests using a BMI of 27.0 as the cutoff for Obesity ( instead of 30 ), and using a Body Mass Index of 21.0 as the cutoff for Overweight ( instead of 25 ), because these values match the same body fat percentages as caucasians.
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Get enough sleep each night. Research studies have connected sleep deprivation to obesity as well as to poor eating habits, a sluggish metabolism and depression, all of which in turn also contribute to weight gain. Ayurvedic healers recognized this connection between sleep and digestion long ago, hence the ayurvedic ideal daily routine, which urges you to be in bed before 10 p.m. and wake up before 6 a.m. for the best quality and quantity of sleep.
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Frame size
Height cms & Elbow Breadth for Medium frame (if smaller, small frame, larger, large frame)
146cm - 148cm, 57mm - 64mm
150cm - 158cm, 57mm - 64mm
160cm - 168cm, 60mm - 67mm
170cm - 178cm, 60mm - 67mm
180cm - 190cm, 63mm - 70mm
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Body Type Female
Athlete 17%
Lean 17-22%
Normal 22-25%
Above Average 25-29%
Overfat 29-35%
Obese 35+%
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am-i-fat.com is quite interesting.
x tammy penned at 11:07 PM
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"They make me feel so much better by commenting on how I've put on so much weight, how much chubbier I've become, poking and pinching here and there... Thanks y'all. I really need it.
If you were an idiot you wouldn't have figured that the paragraph above was pure sarcasm.
I know I'm fat. You don't have to rub it in. My self esteem is already way below zero. Oh, did you know I freak myself out? I really do.
Just last Sunday, my parents brought me on a buffet at some hotel down town. After I felt that I ate a lot, I felt so guilty that I actually went to the bathroom, went into a bathroom cubicle, shut the door, stared at the toilet bowl and thought of throwing up.
I actually stuck my finger down my throat in a futile attempt to vomit.
"What the fuck are you doing?" I thought.
Then I forced myself to stop.
My self esteem is already way below zero. My results are slipping through my fingers like fine sand because I can't concentrate. My friends' comments on intelligence and looks as well as their unpredictable moods swings makes it all the more hard for me to talk to them.
With all these, it's hard to fight the urge. It really is. I'm already on the brink of going down that path. I'm not sure how long more my willpower can hold out.
I'm sorry if I hurt you."Questions:
1. How do you feel after reading this text?
2. What are you thinking after reading this text?
3. Would you still treat the author in the same way as you usually do?
4. Would you, if I told you it was me?
x tammy penned at 10:11 PM
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I haven't blogged here in donkey years.
Yep SPSL selections have arrived.
PSLs not applyingAndrea
Anzie
Chao Ying
Chermaine
Denise
Geraldine
Pei Rong
Ping Fang
Rebecca Ling
Valerie
... and the list is still growing.
WHYYY I THOUGHT OUR BATCH WAS ENTHU?
I think Mel and Vivian aren't sure whether they wanna apply.
Oh well. The decision is theirs, and I respect that.
x tammy penned at 12:23 AM
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It's only March and I'm already getting all stressed up with convention which is only in November.
And it's mainly because of Mr Chu.
I quote Xu Yan's email.
"... after you left today mr chu said that for the budget he wanted another column that states the maximum amt.what he meant was like for now we are planning a budget based on 250 participants, so he wants us to add in a column where the amnt is for 300 participants. so it's like the maximum and minimum amt we can spend...."
Okay fine, he's being kanchiong. I'm good with that.
-Breathes- Thank goodness Xuyan's around.
Mr Chu said 70k is even more than what PB has, and that RGS girls are lousy with handling money, and he'll come after me if anything goes wrong, and he wants a procedure in the purchasing and claiming money shit.
Thanks man. THANKS.
x tammy penned at 11:17 PM
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